Day 17: Away

a·way əˈwā/

adverb
to or at a distance from a particular place, person, or thing.

Just as a disclaimer: Even though you have been away for 21 total days, this is still day 17 of the blog, since we spent the past couple of days together. The time we spent together was magical. There's really no other way to put it! Also, with each waking moment, I realize more and more how beautiful, incredible, and wonderful you are. You are deserving of so much beyond anything I could ever have the power to provide to you. You are captivating, motivating, and easy to love. You make life just make sense. Being with you helps me realize that, but being away from you makes me realize it even more. It is a harsh reality, with an incredible silver lining. You are coming home soon. There isn't much more time left on this trip. I can tell that you have changed a little bit. You aren't so much a baby in many instances that you once were. You are a fighter; and right now, you are stronger than ever. I can't wait for you to be back, and for us to continue this journey of life together. Because being away really stinks.

always & forever

Mateo

Day 16: Nervous

nervous ˈnərvəs/

adjective

1. easily agitated or alarmed; tending to be anxious; highly strung.

2. relating to or affecting the nerves.

Tomorrow, we both fly to San Francisco, California. We will finally see each other after 16+ days apart (but who's counting?)!!! I must admit that I am feeling as if we are meeting for the first time. I know it's sort of girly, or hopelessly romantic(ish), but it's true! It has been super hard to be without you. I keep thinking about what to do when we see each other, but I really just want to be around you - soaking up the time we have together. I never thought I would ever be nervous to see you, but I sort of am. I know everything will be okay, but I'm just looking forward to this so much, while also hoping time won't go by too fast. That's all! I hope to be able to blog as normally done, but we will see.

See you soon.

Day 15: Perseverance

per·se·ver·ance ˌpərsəˈvirəns/

noun

steadfastness in doing something despite difficulty or delay in achieving success.

This blog has quickly become entry after entry of praising your subtleties. That's okay though. You really do deserve recognition every once in a while. And why not load you up with these compliments while you are not able to read it!? Once you do though, hopefully it will be reassuring and make you happy. Anyway, back to today! This word describes your actions perfectly. I suppose the word "will" would have done the trick as well, but this will do. It is also fitting that it is in the same stream as you being so motivational. I couldn't see it any other way though. Your actions speak louder than any words. You excel in everything you can get your hands on. That isn't by any form of an accident. You are built like a well-oiled machine. You go through life, striving to find something appealing - yet difficult, only to work through it flawlessly, and showcase your amazing capabilities in the process. It is not something that can really be learned. You are just a natural-born killer. You seek out these things, and hunt them as if they were measly prey. To sum this up appropriately, you are everything that anyone could imagine and dream of being. It is a privilege to be in your life, and a miracle that we both persevered long enough to find each other at the right time. 

Day 14: Impossible

im·pos·si·ble imˈpäsəb(ə)l/

adjective

not able to occur, exist, or be done.

I have never seen a task that you couldn't take on. In fact, when faced with any challenge, you absolutely demolish it. You rarely take no for an answer, and you move through life with such vigor and a strong attitude, that nothing can stand in your way. With you, anything and everything is possible. There doesn't seem to be anything you can't handle. I have noticed this more and more as you go on the road trip. You are the strongest person I know, and you seem to have zero fear for anything. I admire that. I really do. You are an incredibly special person, with the courage and heart of a lion. Please don't stray too far from that (no pressure), because you are the best motivator there is. 

I love you

Day 13: Concentration

con·cen·tra·tion ˌkänsənˈtrāSH(ə)n/

noun

the action or power of focusing one's attention or mental effort.

It is extremely hard to remain intrigued by something or somebody. Oddly enough, when you have that feeling towards something or somebody, it is incredibly hard to break it. Concentration is a nearly impenetrable force. With respect to you, in particular, when you have devotion to your concentration, nothing can stop you. Your efforts and desire goes beyond anything else I have ever seen. With that, comes incredible motivation for those around you. I think I can speak for everyone when I tell you how motivational you are. Everyone has such a crazy respect for you and everything you do. Yesterday, Julissa was saying how proud she is of you, how much you deserve, and how great of a person you are. A whole post could be written about what she said, but I will spare you. Just know you are loved, cared for, and overall outstandingly adored by so many people. Everything you do is given credit where it is due. You really are a remarkably amazing person. Thank you for never giving up. 

I love you.

Day 12: Abnormality

ab·nor·mal·i·ty ˌabnôrˈmalədē/

noun
an abnormal feature, characteristic, or occurrence, typically in a medical context.

the quality or state of being abnormal.

It's sort of interesting, how this thing called "life" works. We work hard on living for our passions, in order to live a life of happiness and completeness. Though this may be true, the line between doing what we love, and conforming to others in society, is very fine. This is the absolute truth, and runs deep enough for people to be looked at as if they have an abnormality because they do not desire to conform. I keep getting stuck on the fact that there are people out there that live their lives so loosely, that they sacrifice any base that they have already built. Mainly in relationships, people get engulfed in whatever the subject matter they are involved in, only to eventually grow bored of the state of the involvement that they have. In other words, people are far more open to open relationships. It is very sad, and seems to be some form of a cry for help. While I shouldn't ever let it get to me, I have the responsibility of taking care of you and our relationship, along with taking care of myself. The abnormality that a large section of society has deemed normal, is a grand concern. I don't ever want you to have to be in a position of compromise. I trust you, but it is never an easy feeling to be bombarded with outside "static". And truthfully, maybe this normalcy that has been created is to their own demise. In today's society, that would be received with a scoffing tone, and a confirmation of the abnormality.

Day 11: Tired

tired ˈtī(ə)rd/

adjective

in need of sleep or rest; weary.

Yep. That about describes it! Eleven days in, and I feel completely exhausted. Work this week was pretty rough, but I couldn't help staying up to talk with you. That probably didn't make the fatigue any better, though I wouldn't trade it for the world. You are my everything, and more than I could ever ask for. You make my days better, even from a distance. Hearing and seeing you makes me reassured that all in life is still good. Thank you for being patient with me, talking with me, and allowing me into the details of your trip. I miss you so much. It sounds like the trip is going very well for you though, and you are having a good time. You make missing home look easy, too!